This is when I first met you. Not the first time I’d seen you, but the first time we actually met. You were hurting yourself, of course. Being the sarcastic asshole that I was before I fell in love with you, I merely walked away. Then, not too long after, you captivated my heart — dead or not. You’re so beautiful, Violet. So god damn beautiful.
I remember when we had our first kiss. You were hesitant at first, but then you followed along. You lips were soft and warm. It made me feel alive again — but not the bad parts of being alive. I used to think it was such utter bullshit when people said they’d get the sensation of “butterflies” in their stomach around someone they liked. I was so wrong, because in that moment, my stomach filled with those odd, winged insects. So much so, that I actually though it would burst open. You made me so nervous, but then again — everything felt so natural with you.
I remember when we first made love. I was surprised that it didn’t hurt you, the first time or so it usually does. Or maybe you being dead by then had something to do with it. I don’t know, nor do I care…well, of course I care for your health and if you’re in pain or not. But I am just glad we shared that moment. I am lucky to say that I got to lay with someone like you — both beautiful inside and out.
That’s really rare, Vi. It’s so weird that out of anywhere, you landed here. Right into a house with a violet history — right where I was. So…maybe it was destined to happen. I don’t know if you believe in all of that romantic love shit, and I am not even sure if I do completely, but seeing as though it was all true with you, I cannot doubt it.
I remember when you told me to go away, too. You were yelling, your eyes filled with tears. But you were strong. You told me to go, and I went — but not before putting up a fight. I was so god damn scared to lose you, Violet. And I did lose you, for a while …. at least. But I’ve no doubt you won’t be in my arms till time’s end.
I love you.
A million times,
I love you.
Forever yours — TL ♥